[And there it is. It's the matter-of-fact tone that convinces him that you're not merely saying this for dramatic effect. That, and Yulia Bostova doesn't really do "sad smiling".]
I know.
[And from his tone, you know that he's referring to both of the things you said. Incongruously, he thinks that it is entirely too depressing for you to be getting each other when he has eleven years on you. But then, he thinks, neither time nor tide really care for the feelings of tiny people such as you and he.
It is for that exact same reason that, sometimes, he hates the thought of being a long-lived mage. It's too easy to lose more than you gain when you live hundreds of years.]
Does saying it make it easier?
[He's not gonna say anything about how selfish it would be if it did. If anyone in this blade has the most right to be selfish about how to live or die, it's got to be you.
Do you know, Yulia, how much it will fucking hurt to not force you to run away from death?]
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I know.
[And from his tone, you know that he's referring to both of the things you said. Incongruously, he thinks that it is entirely too depressing for you to be getting each other when he has eleven years on you. But then, he thinks, neither time nor tide really care for the feelings of tiny people such as you and he.
It is for that exact same reason that, sometimes, he hates the thought of being a long-lived mage. It's too easy to lose more than you gain when you live hundreds of years.]
Does saying it make it easier?
[He's not gonna say anything about how selfish it would be if it did. If anyone in this blade has the most right to be selfish about how to live or die, it's got to be you.
Do you know, Yulia, how much it will fucking hurt to not force you to run away from death?]